I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can

Infobox Film
name = I'm Dancing as Fast As I Can


image_size = 100px
caption = Original poster
director = Jack Hofsiss
producer = Scott Rudin
David Rabe
writer = David Rabe
Based on the book by Barbara Gordon
starring = Jill Clayburgh
Nicol Williamson
Geraldine Page
Diane Wiest
music = Stanley Silverman
distributor = Paramount Pictures
released = March 5, 1982 USA
runtime = 106 minutes
country = USA
language = English
budget =
gross =
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imdb_id = 0084111

"I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can" is a 1982 American biographical film directed by Jack Hofsiss. The screenplay by David Rabe is based on the memoir of the same title by Emmy Award-winning documentary filmmaker Barbara Gordon, whose addiction to and difficult withdrawal from Valium serves as the basis of the plot.

Plot synopsis

Barbara Gordon appears to have it all, including a successful career in a male-dominated industry and a solid relationship with her live-in lover, attorney Derek Bauer. Beneath her facade is a high-strung personality who heavily relies on sedatives to reduce tension and anxiety and maintain a composed exterior for her friends and associates. Her current project focuses on cancer patient Jean Scott Martin and her husband Ben and how the couple is coping as the disease progresses. Despite reserverations expressed by her collaborators, Barbara is determined to end the film on a positive note, showing the Martins embracing on the beach. When she shows them a rough cut, fatalistic Jean is angered by the false optimism and vehemently voices her objections to Barbara's choices.

The response triggers a deep depression in Barbara, who relies on Doctor Kalman, her therapist of many years, and an increased dosage of Valium to see her through the crisis. She finally reaches a turning point when she realizes Kalman's treatment has been ineffective and admits her dependence on drugs is controlling her life. Her effort to quit cold turkey results in a rapid physical, mental, and emotional deterioration fueled by Derek's refusal to let her seek medical help and his alcohol-driven determination to control her completely. Following a series of physical fights, he imprisons her - bruised, bloodied, and broken - by tying her to a chair. She manages to convince him they had dinner plans with friends Karen and Sam Mulligan, and when he calls them to cancel, her screams for help alert them to her situation.

Barbara is institutionalized and begins a long and arduous journey towards recovery with the help of Julie Addison. During this period, she is visited by Jean, who confesses she may have overreacted to Barbara's film. Her encouragement inspires Barbara to get well and complete the project. Jean suggests she end the film with an image of Barbara herself walking on the beach, and she complies with her wishes. Jean dies before seeing the completed work, but a newly confident Barbara is certain she would have approved of it.

Production notes

Much of the film was shot on location in New York City. The hospital interiors and exteriors were filmed at Pomona College in Claremont, California.

Some of the original music composed by Stanley Silverman was performed by pianist Paul Jacobs. The soundtrack includes "I Guess I'll Have to Change My Plan" by Tony Bennett and Count Basie and "Our Love is Insane" by Desmond Child and Rouge.

Principal cast

*Jill Clayburgh ..... Barbara Gordon
*Nicol Williamson ..... Derek Bauer
*Dianne Wiest ..... Julie Addison
*Geraldine Page ..... Jean Scott Martin
*Albert Salmi ..... Ben Martin
*James Sutorius ..... Sam Mulligan
*Ellen Greene ..... Karen Mulligan
*Joseph Maher ..... Doctor Kalman
*Joe Pesci ..... Roger
*Dan Hedaya ..... Doctor Klein
*Kathleen Widdoes ..... Doctor Rawlings
*Richard Masur ..... Alan Newman
*John Lithgow ..... Mr. Brunner
*David Margulies ..... Walter Kress

Critical response

In her review in the "New York Times", Janet Maslin called it "a forceful and involving film. But it's not an especially revealing one. We never quite learn why Barbara Gordon, who is played earnestly and vigorously by Jill Clayburgh, has gotten into trouble. Although the film describes her illness and recovery in harrowing detail, it simply presents the symptoms . . . "I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can" is often quite effective, by nature of the very nightmare that it chronicles. But its power is more bluntly disturbing than provocative or controlled. Geraldine Page particularly exemplifies this, in the role of a poet who is dying of cancer . . . the film isn't sure how to use her. It returns to her periodically, as if trying not to be forgetful, rather than in a more dramatic or opportune way. It doesn't wonder why Barbara is more deeply attached to this woman than to anyone else in her life. And it chronicles her illness as much for its upsetting effect as to provide any insight into Barbara. This movie doesn't need any more distress than Barbara's story already provides." [ [http://movies.nytimes.com/movie/review?res=9E00EED8123BF936A35750C0A964948260 "New York Times" review] ]

According to "Variety", "Crucial inability of a film to get inside a character's head spells big trouble for "I'm Dancing As Fast As I Can". Result here is that Jill Clayburgh's constantly center-stage character comes off as the pill-popping dingbat she's called at one point, rather than as a fascinating lady with a major problem . . . Only two members of the large supporting cast, Dianne Wiest and Geraldine Page, have any chance to develop their characters, and both do well." [ [http://www.variety.com/review/VE1117791900.html?categoryid=31&cs=1&p=0 "Variety" review] ]

References

External links

* [http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0084111/ "I'm Dancing as Fast as I Can" at the Internet Movie Database]